Lover's plea

My lover and my beloved,
I have seen you, I have felt you
Yet you escape me.

I have left the minarets of mosques
I tried to seek you in godlessness of temples
I even let myself go in the presence of christ
Yet, I fail to find thee.

I intoxicated myself,
I obliterated myself,
and every time I forget myself
I am given a fruit from your presence
A presence that only reminds me of me

who are you?
At least, for the sake of a moment's satisfaction
tell me, who am I?
I am left to do things here without my control.

I have hoped to do one thing that enables me
I have dreamed of achieving the heights others have
but without here right now, where can i be?

I wish I was annihilated, burnt in all consuming fire
if that is what it takes to see you.
Accept my humble prayer, in your majestic presence
My insides cannot take this anymore.

Take mercy on me, grant me thine love
for all i want is thee.